Yet another year has passed....
Who would have thought that I could go this long without writing? I found an outlet on my myspace for a bit...but there comes a time where you realize that all of your so-called friends don't necessarily deserve an inside channel on what is going on. Sometimes, it feels refreshing to be silent and private and have something that is all your own to enjoy. This is much of what my life has been the past year: moonlit nights at home, sitting on the couch next to my husband, holding my daughter in my lap with my son at my other side; late night glasses of wine and laughter; deep conversation; the beautiful welcoming sound of a peaceful life, uninterrupted by drama or crisis. Really, it's been one of the best years of my life.
It's pretty amazing to sit back and think how wonderful my life has been...without all of the typical things that are interpreted as exciting. Day to day life with a husband and two kids is plenty adventurous. In fact, I'd once again have to say that I've been entirely too busy enjoying my real life to write about it. I'm thinking it's time to do a memoir. I know a large number of people who won't believe that the emotionally stunted party girl has found comfort in the routine and simple. Then again, I know a number of people who will continue to be amazed that I lived this long and made it this far. Fact is, I've never cared much of what people thought of me or the trouble that I got myself into and it's a damned good thing. Had I listened to all of the negative nellies in the world, my light would have flickered out long ago.
So here I sit, ready to write again. Ready to tell the world how perfect the imperfect really is. Ready to share how surprises, good and bad, keep one feeling alive. Ready to embrace that the best of who I am is because of who I have been.
busy, busy, busy
So, when I went to a friend's blog, I realized (once again) that I had been neglecting my own. Oh how time flies!
So, here it is, many months after my wedding and life is still amazing. We're coming up on our 1 year anniversary and our first child is due on the 4th of July. We really couldn't be happier - especially Nevin, who is looking forward to the role of big brother.
On February 8th, we get to find out if we are having a boy or a girl. I can hardly wait for the day to get here. Maybe this new chapter in my life will involve more blogging?
Hope all is well to all my old blogger buddies. *muah*
Yes, A Married Woman
So, after all the ups and downs that life has thrown at us, we canceled the big hullabaloo and had a small private ceremony on April 7th. It really was a most amazing day and things are the best they have ever been. The three of us couldn't be happier.
I will be updating this blog with more regularity in the near future - scout's honor. Besides, it's taken on a whole new face. ;)
I never loved this blog like the old one
So I'm thinking of returning to old faithful. There is something about that blog that makes me want to pour my heart out onto it's pages in a way that I have found myself unable to with this one. Maybe, even though it's a new chapter in my life, I have to keep it all together like a book....or, somehow, it just doesn't flow right. I am unsure as to whether the new blogger will let me merge two blogs - but I guess I'll find out.
I've learned a lot of good lessons lately. I've learned that in order for two people to make a relationship work, they have to remain just that: two people, not one large entity. I've realized that it truly is the little things that matter and that showing someone how much you love them is much more important than telling them. I've learned the true meaning of unconditional...and it's more amazing than I ever could have expected.
I don't know what tomorrow holds - I don't sit and contemplate it like I used to. I'm enjoying my life one day at a time - the way I think it was intended to be.
Have the strength to stand up and the faith to move forward.
Yvette
The year from hell
It's barely a month into 2007 and I already wish this year was over.
I know that they say that the trials that we go through make us stronger, but I found a point where I really didn't have any strength left in me. Now, I've had 3 days to try to put myself back together or risk losing the one thing in life that has made me happier than I ever thought that I could be.
Everyone says that the whole "soulmate" thing or the "knight in shining armor" persona is a fairy tale. I'm here to tell all of those people that they are wrong. Kevin is everything that I am not. He has strength where I fall short and gives me balance. He is the other part of me - I have never questioned that.
But, now, thanks to a series of unfortunate events, I have gone from being the happiest woman alive to a scared little girl. I'm standing on my own two feet and tearing through myself to retrieve every last ounce of strength to take the steps that are necessary for change.
Send positive thoughts towards Reno. I can use them right now. Maybe someday I'll find the boldness to tell all of you why.
New day, new things to worry about
I swear, I'm starting to sound like eeyore. No, I'm not feeling left out - but I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed by life. I cry too much and too easily these days because of stress.
If anyone has any advice on how to get your kid to let go of their defiant streak at school, how to put together an affordable wedding reception, and how to deal with people who are going to be your family talking trash about you behind your back....PLEASE, throw it my direction.
down with favoritism
Ever get that feeling that a certain sibling gets preferential treatment? I mean, I guess I understand why. My older half sister didn't grow up with us - she was raised by her crazy mother. I use the term crazy loosely. I guess what I'm saying is that my dad has been bending over backwards for her forever.....even if she's a bad mother and failure on her 3rd marriage.
Now, here my mom sits thinking "
in 1984 we bought her wedding dress for $300...surely we could buy our daughters for $549" Yet, as the answer always is with Dad....no.
Funnier part - he spent that and didn't even go to her wedding...and he's supposed to be IN mine.
Whatever.
Making money, honey
I have GOT to figure out how to pay for this wedding. Kevin is taking a 2nd job. I'm using google adsense (as I'm sure you can see) and hoping to get it together and open an ebay store of some sort. WISH ME LUCK! I'm thinking of doing party supplies...you know, like a step up from Oriental Trading Company.....that stuff is soooo fun and always in demand.
Anywho, cross your fingers for me. I picked out my dress last night and it's AMAZING! It's more perfect than I could have imagined...but it costs more than I was planning on. You know what I say to that? So what! I am only getting married once and I'm doing it right. :)
